To My Brother

To my brother

To that absent soul

I miss you so much

Is there any patience in longing?

I cry for you every day

I wish you'd visit me at least once in my dreams

Tell me about yourself

How did the dogs tear you apart?

How could they not show you some mercy?

And you used to feed them!

There are no loyal friends

As the saying goes, nothing is eternal

Describe to me how was your reunion with our siblings

With our father, too I grieve for you all here

I cry

Please, tell me how your pure heart allowed you

to leave us

How could you go?

Didn't we always say

"We either live together or die together?"

Why did you depart?

Tell me

I was told that crying over the absent won't bring them back in dreams

So, I made a vow to myself

I shall not cry anymore

Please visit me in my dreams again

I want to say goodbye

To hold you one last time

Can you believe it?

I even miss arguing with you

I long to see you walking into my room

And asking me about everything you have been thinking about

I long to make you tea

To follow your one rule

A lot of sugar

You know I talk to myself now

I tell myself that you are in a place that suits you

Even when I cook

I think of you

And tell myself, "He doesn't like this kind of food"

Thank God you are not suffering from this famine

When I sip my tea without sugar

I tell myself that if you were here

You would explode with anger

Forgive me, my dear, for crying

I apologize

I shall tear my heart out

I shall erase my memory

I shall hold back my tears

But I shall wait for you

In my dreams, every night

Please, do not embarrass me

Just visit me one more time

So, I can feel relieved

And know you are fine